OK, I think I am going to survive. It was a little iffy there for a while. But I finally realized something that saved me...It is OK for a baby to cry.
Why do I not remember this from my other two kids? My pediatrician said "No baby ever died from crying". And while it is a sound that I would rather not EVER hear, it is OK. Garrett was super fussy, and my solution was always the bottle or the boob. So I am scrambling to make him a bottle the other day, after he had sucked the life out of me, and he is wailing his little head off. My friend said, "Aren't newborn cries just the cutest?" My response "UM...NO." My kids are shrieking, hollering, yowling, yelping, wailers... Must be the survival instinct. And it is not gradual. From the moment they wake, there's about a .5 second pause before the shrieks begin. So Garrett is wailing his guts out and I am racing to make this bottle, just feeling horrible that the poor kid is having a half a second of discomfort in his puny existence, when he abruptly stops. I thought he might have died. Nope- he was asleep...HALLELUJAH! I know how he feels. Sometimes you just got to let it out, and have a good little cry before bed. So, for the past two and a half weeks I have been completely overwhelmed, but now I think I will survive. And it is good to know that even with a few tears, Garrett will survive too.